Nehemiah

Another thing that has been going through my mind lately is Nehemiah.

When I was growing up someone very dear to me once told me they felt the Lord wanted them to tell me that the book of Nehemiah was for me. (Not in those words exactly, but along the line of that I needed to read and hold onto it because it spoke of how I was). Lately I found myself crying out to the Lord concerning what He would have me do, and what He has shown me, and what He has called me to do. There is such confusion lately, and of course the usual feeling of trying to live in two different worlds.

As I've prayed that in the past, He would usually somehow bring me back to Nehemiah and remind me. And it's no different this time either, as a sister just  randomly decided to tell me in conversation that she has been studying Nehemiah lately. . .

And so, Nehemiah. I still pray though, and ask the Lord just what about Nehemiah is it that is important for me to know regarding my call? Am I called to something similar? He told me growing up that He set me to wake up the sleeping Christians and showed me going to different churches around the United States. But why isn't that happening, I ask. Where are the open doors necessary? Am I the reason doors haven't opened?

Over the last 7-10 years I've had opportunities to visit and minister at other churches, yet I was led to believe to turn those down and be only available to the church here in my area. I truly believe I am utterly at fault for those doors I rejected. But I often question if I still do this, or if I'm doing something else that is hindering these doors from opening. I am not sure.

But I simply pray for understanding in regard to what Nehemiah has to do with me and what God has called me to do, and what am I supposed to do about it, in taking steps in my life.